Wednesday, January 22, 2003
I'm at home! YAY! I'm writing on my computer. Geez...I love ya guy.
I miss my computer. I only get to be home like 4 days a week now that Paul is living in the city. So when I am home, it's like a celebration of kinds. Not really a party, per se. More like a reunion.
Kelly got cut from work tonight and to Rita's and my surprise, came walking in the door at 7:30pm. It was pretty strange! She is NEVER home after our usual 9-5 jobs. She walked in and we loved. We absorbed. We talked for a bit and then tuned in to American Idol to laugh and laugh. It was nice. And I miss it. A lot.
I decided that while writing tonight, I was going to do something different.
I decided to be fucking LAME and tell a few things about myself that you might not know.
LAME
For example...I will tell you a secret or an embarrassing couple of things and you will laugh and go...boh?
Cuz you go boh. Even if you don't think you act boh...you do. You are boh.
Here we go: (boh and go)
1) I like french fries alot. A very lot.
(I just wrote a whole paragraph about french fries and hated it so much that I had to burn myself and erase it immediately. Holy shit. I just wrote complete garbage and almost posted it. LAME joe. lame.)
(stop with the "lame" shit!)
I can't stop saying it.
Next...
2) I have a problem with tangents. I can't stop ever.
3) I believe in the Lord Jesus Christ pretty hardcore and sometimes it doesn't come across nearly enough in this journal. Cuz it should. It's everything to me. I understand that people have their own opinions about my lifestyle and my quote un quote (lame)homosexuality, but my relationship with God is my business and I couldn't possibly see it otherwise.
4) I am a horribly jealous person. In highschool I was terrible. I thought I had outgrown it, but lately I think it's worse than ever. I am an evil monster. The ugliest kind. I can be scary.
5)
ha. (being honest hurts)
5) I want to hook up with a bodybuilder before I die. It's just what I want to do. I want to do it alot. So much.
6) I worry about being an actor every day of my life. I obsess about it and I make myself sick over it. I want so badly to have it all fall into place, but I haven't yet found the path. It's close and I feel the tides changing. It's such a long process, yet I know what I am destined to do. I know it. Yes, people say it all the time, but I truly feel it. I am at the start of something big and I am afraid to accept it.
I believe this shit. And I believe it's time.
7) I have watched every Real World from beginning to end and it truly hurts my feelings that the Las Vegas cast was ever born. Sometimes...sometimes Rita and I sit and name every character from every cast. It's just what we do. I am pretty impressed by us. If the LSAT'S involved memorizing and adoring the Real World, then Rita and I...well...we'd be PhD's. or something else with an easier abbreviation to type.
8) The Simpsons is my favorite tv show of all time. hands down.
9) I love my parents obsessively and it scares me to imagine a life without them. (I haven't talked to them in 2 weeks and it makes me ((literally)) sick to my stomach. I miss them. I worry about them. I need...NEED...to learn how to live my life separate from them. I am 25 and I want to spend every day with them. What happens when they're gone? When I don't have them here anymore. This is the fucked up shit that I think and stress about. Stop it Joe. Stop it.
10) I love to sing and sometimes think I was meant to be a singer. Then I stop and smack myself for lighting and loving that first cigarette. I wasn't meant to smoke. I know it. But here I sit smoking anything that will light. Singing is my love. I love music and I love a good voice. I love everything about it. I have aspirations of writing a song and being in a Broadway musical and cutting an album (even a lame European one)...and and and. I just love it. I wonder how my life could have been different.
11) I need to finish soon. It's 10pm and I gots shit to do.
12) This is how much of a loser I was...when I was in fifth grade, one of my friends, Todd, brought a "Penthouse" on the school bus and I went up to the bus driver and totally rat him out. As we know, even then, I must not have liked titties. I TOLD on him! He was busted and didn't ride our bus for awhile. Man. I sucked.
13) I was obsessed with "The Babysitter's Club" (trademark) for 13 straight books and two super specials and can to this day tell you how upset I was when Claudia's grandmother "Mimi" died. It's a secret I tell only the few. Cuz I mean...Joe...did you think you were a 13 year old girl!? But I did and I loved it. I find it to be useful knowledge these days. You wouldn't look at me and think "That guy just loved "The Babysitter's Club"!". But I did. And in the game of life, I will use it against you.
14) I like to be in my bed and comfortable no later than 11pm when I am home. That means no more of this little share myself shit.
This was fun. Maybe I will start thinking of random themes and topics to my journal! Yeah! That's exactly the thing I'm trying to go against!
snore.
Sometimes it's just fun to type when you know that other people are reading it and thinking how damn crazy and sexy you are.
cuz so sexy, right?
I mean, I haven't shit in two days.
sexy, right?
oooh. it's brewin...
I miss my computer. I only get to be home like 4 days a week now that Paul is living in the city. So when I am home, it's like a celebration of kinds. Not really a party, per se. More like a reunion.
Kelly got cut from work tonight and to Rita's and my surprise, came walking in the door at 7:30pm. It was pretty strange! She is NEVER home after our usual 9-5 jobs. She walked in and we loved. We absorbed. We talked for a bit and then tuned in to American Idol to laugh and laugh. It was nice. And I miss it. A lot.
I decided that while writing tonight, I was going to do something different.
I decided to be fucking LAME and tell a few things about myself that you might not know.
LAME
For example...I will tell you a secret or an embarrassing couple of things and you will laugh and go...boh?
Cuz you go boh. Even if you don't think you act boh...you do. You are boh.
Here we go: (boh and go)
1) I like french fries alot. A very lot.
(I just wrote a whole paragraph about french fries and hated it so much that I had to burn myself and erase it immediately. Holy shit. I just wrote complete garbage and almost posted it. LAME joe. lame.)
(stop with the "lame" shit!)
I can't stop saying it.
Next...
2) I have a problem with tangents. I can't stop ever.
3) I believe in the Lord Jesus Christ pretty hardcore and sometimes it doesn't come across nearly enough in this journal. Cuz it should. It's everything to me. I understand that people have their own opinions about my lifestyle and my quote un quote (lame)homosexuality, but my relationship with God is my business and I couldn't possibly see it otherwise.
4) I am a horribly jealous person. In highschool I was terrible. I thought I had outgrown it, but lately I think it's worse than ever. I am an evil monster. The ugliest kind. I can be scary.
5)
ha. (being honest hurts)
5) I want to hook up with a bodybuilder before I die. It's just what I want to do. I want to do it alot. So much.
6) I worry about being an actor every day of my life. I obsess about it and I make myself sick over it. I want so badly to have it all fall into place, but I haven't yet found the path. It's close and I feel the tides changing. It's such a long process, yet I know what I am destined to do. I know it. Yes, people say it all the time, but I truly feel it. I am at the start of something big and I am afraid to accept it.
I believe this shit. And I believe it's time.
7) I have watched every Real World from beginning to end and it truly hurts my feelings that the Las Vegas cast was ever born. Sometimes...sometimes Rita and I sit and name every character from every cast. It's just what we do. I am pretty impressed by us. If the LSAT'S involved memorizing and adoring the Real World, then Rita and I...well...we'd be PhD's. or something else with an easier abbreviation to type.
8) The Simpsons is my favorite tv show of all time. hands down.
9) I love my parents obsessively and it scares me to imagine a life without them. (I haven't talked to them in 2 weeks and it makes me ((literally)) sick to my stomach. I miss them. I worry about them. I need...NEED...to learn how to live my life separate from them. I am 25 and I want to spend every day with them. What happens when they're gone? When I don't have them here anymore. This is the fucked up shit that I think and stress about. Stop it Joe. Stop it.
10) I love to sing and sometimes think I was meant to be a singer. Then I stop and smack myself for lighting and loving that first cigarette. I wasn't meant to smoke. I know it. But here I sit smoking anything that will light. Singing is my love. I love music and I love a good voice. I love everything about it. I have aspirations of writing a song and being in a Broadway musical and cutting an album (even a lame European one)...and and and. I just love it. I wonder how my life could have been different.
11) I need to finish soon. It's 10pm and I gots shit to do.
12) This is how much of a loser I was...when I was in fifth grade, one of my friends, Todd, brought a "Penthouse" on the school bus and I went up to the bus driver and totally rat him out. As we know, even then, I must not have liked titties. I TOLD on him! He was busted and didn't ride our bus for awhile. Man. I sucked.
13) I was obsessed with "The Babysitter's Club" (trademark) for 13 straight books and two super specials and can to this day tell you how upset I was when Claudia's grandmother "Mimi" died. It's a secret I tell only the few. Cuz I mean...Joe...did you think you were a 13 year old girl!? But I did and I loved it. I find it to be useful knowledge these days. You wouldn't look at me and think "That guy just loved "The Babysitter's Club"!". But I did. And in the game of life, I will use it against you.
14) I like to be in my bed and comfortable no later than 11pm when I am home. That means no more of this little share myself shit.
This was fun. Maybe I will start thinking of random themes and topics to my journal! Yeah! That's exactly the thing I'm trying to go against!
snore.
Sometimes it's just fun to type when you know that other people are reading it and thinking how damn crazy and sexy you are.
cuz so sexy, right?
I mean, I haven't shit in two days.
sexy, right?
oooh. it's brewin...
